My night summed up.

I love my boyfriend.

I love the world we've created with each other.

I love this universe that attaches us.

I love his love. 

I am complete. 

Progress.

I had every intention of coming on here today and sharing a DIY that I've been planning all week and then I realized something else...I have been stuck in my own world on all these positive things I've been encountering and it's been making me super happy so I decided to put it off for another day.

Consider this as a positive negative...lol.

Anyway, as you all have been following, I've been yearning for a way to make my life better and mostly in an emotional sense. I've dealt with anxiety so long that I've been so unraveled. It's hard getting yourself out of a hole that is essentially becoming a grave.

Today, I've made some positive changes starting with the way I look at things and it feel so wonderful! Normally I get anxious in public places, no matter te circumstance. I instantly become shaky and then I mentally put myself down. Today as I was browsing through a store, I began to think about things differently. I focused on the things I was after and how happy of an impact it's going to make later on. I looked at a shirt and complimented myself for the first in a long time. I was genuinely happy! I wasn't shaking out of nervousness and I talked backed to myself civilly. This was the most life changing experience to date and began to see how easy it will be to continue.

Another progress I've been making is my credit card debt that I've been struggling with for a while. I don't openly speak about this because really, who would? No one should be proud of their debt...at least not until you get out of it. I never thought about how hard it would be to get out of credit card debt until I got myself into it and now little by little, I'm starting to get out. It's a liberating feeling amongst many.

So you see, I have legit reasons why I put off something I said I would do and I hope it doesn't sound like another excuse, but truly, this is why I spaced out on it. I am naturally a space cadet either way, but today was something really positive that deserved to take the spotlight.

What is something positive that you encountered lately?

Sincerely, 

Josie 

Life and Death.

Life is a really complicated place. I don't know how else to stress it. These past couple days have really brought out a lot of emotion inside of me to really dwell on all the things in life that make it wonderful and the things in life that make it what it is. One of the greatest things about life that I completely enjoy is the people that are placed in it and how they have shaped some part of it. And this is where it begins...

On Tuesday a very special woman to me passed away. My dear aunt Shirley whom I have grown to love with so much in me left myself and many others with a great deal of sadness in our hearts. Along with the sadness, words cannot even convey how much joy Shirley has placed in our hearts as well and in which is mainly why many of us are deeply saddened.

Life is a piece of work, but death is a motherfucker. I wish just as much as others that death did not exist and that we could live forever...but it simply cannot be done and we find ways in life to cope with our losses and find ways and signs of life to continue on. This is probably the hardest realization and also the only thing that helps us in the end.

I never thought I could ever hurt so much in my entire life. That feeling of something missing weighing our hearts is so intense that you feel as if yourself is the one dying. Instead, we live.

I used to be terrified of death. I would lie awake in the night and fear of where I would end up if somehow I died. I would (back when I had belief) pray to god and ask for safety and I would clutch onto my chest and cry because I could not fathom not being able to breathe. As you grow older you become less fearful and your question of the unknown lessens. Today I still wonder, but not until I run out of breath.

We've all been to that place in life where we would like to disappear and never be in existence. This is the most selfish feeling in the world, but you're a fucking liar if you've claimed to never felt this way. I've contemplated this many times and still do from time to time because once upon a time we've all been told that there's a "better place" amongst us and we eventually go there when time ends. Sounds almost like a dream, right? 

I don't want you all to read this and think I'm being a downer because that's not at all what this is about, in fact, there's a silver lining. Life is too short and many take for granted what others lived and breathed appreciatively. People get shunned for beaming positivity. Others get treated like shit for being true to who they are and mostly for the way they respresent it. I fucking hate how people can be so cruel and make others feel so inferior. It's like what I've stated in my last post and if you refer that to this, you'll realize exactly how important life is and how it matters to be a better you each and every day.

I don't preach "stop giving a shit" for nothing...and this is exactly why it should be applied now. Do you want to live lfe with regrets just because someone was insecure that you could change the world? I didn't think so. Be kind and love more. Stop pushing people away, especially those that matter the most! What are your last thoughts and feelings going to be of this person once they pass  or rather how would they feel about you?

If I could create a foundation for a better tomorrow, my platform would be appreciation. People expect so much in a world where only little can be given. Appreciate the damn little things in life because sometimes that's all that can be given and at most becomes the biggest impact in your life and in others. When you only have so much to give, don't advertise it as just something small, make it become like an investment where it can become huge over time. 

In conclusion, I've learned through aunt Shirley's passing that the most important things in life are usually the smallest gifts. I grew up with loving parents that may not had the world to give me, but they gave me a small portion of what they could that trend into bigger and better things in life. Those gifts were: loyalty, appreciation, honesty, and kindness. To this day I've learned to utilize this so that others can learn by example just how big of an impact it can make.

Life is wonderful if you utilize your experience correctly and there's never a late start in shaping it better. Go ahead and make your mistakes, but learn from it. Treat others how you'd want to be treated. Someone out there is fighting a battle as well. Make their fight less extreme. Pay it forward.

Sincerely,

Josie

Pour Some Sugar On Me: Life As A Sugar Baby

This is a very tough subject to really put into words, which is why I have made a couple videos on my YouTube account to really express how I feel about the subject and have received some very appreciated responses to the matter as well.
This lifestyle is not for everyone and I will just say this first and foremost. This is something that can be adapted into one's lifestyle, but seriously, if it's not for you, you will know and therefore do not pursue it any further. This is some very sage advice that I will be throwing out into the open to use as you please, but caution: This is all at your own risk and I do not accept or should be held accountable for your actions.

What is a sugar baby, you ask? A sugar baby is a female whom dates wealthy (mostly) older males (called "Sugar Daddies" to gain money, gifts, and luxury. Basically, if you work it right, you can get anything your heart desires...but that's too easy, right? Exactly. There's an abundance that goes along with the rewards that could potentially become high risks for you in the process and that shall be mentioned.

There are many ways to attain the Sugar Daddy of your dreams, but just be warned that a background check might come in handy if it deems appropriate. However, many sites these days that offer the SD/SB relationship require for SD's only to have one upon signing up and I love this as it will confirm everything you really want and/or need to know. However, if you do it a craigslist way and search, that is at your own risk and I do not condone this as craigslist is the shadiest of all places on the internet (insert Lifetime movie: "The Craigslist Killer").

Now as for the sites, what ones should you look into? Here's a short list that I personally have enjoyed:

• SeekingArrangements (Great site with many benefits and lots of verification)
• MissTravel (For those looking to be a companion and see the world)
• Sugarbaby4u (A little meh, but does the job)
• MarryMeSugarDaddy (Obviously for those looking for love and wealth)
• WhatsYourPrice (Very self explanatory...you set the rate and they pay to take you on the date!)
• SugarSugar (Another basic site for SD/SB dating)

So which site is right for you? Obviously that is all determined by your wants/needs and the rest is history. That's the fun part of the whole process, but next is the scary part which many young women tend to disregard....

1. Safety...and in case that isn't obvious enough, then maybe you need to check yourself for some common sense. You have every option in this world to make yourself safe from danger just as you do to make yourself approachable. Set limits or better yet boundaries and draw a thick line. Put your foot down and never back away from your comfort zone. The most common mistake that Sugar Babies make is the whole getting too comfortable wayyyy too fast. This is how you get yourself in danger and no amount of money can provide you that kind of security.
2. Honesty...if there's a will, there's a way and that will help you get what you want out of the relationship. You can't expect the Sugar Daddy to take control of everything, no, that is your job. How do you expect to get what you want if you don't lay it out on the table and have it recognized? Exactly my point. Never beat around the bush as it will only create more frustration on your part. Don't lie and say you are childless when in fact you are a mother. An SD will wonder why you aren't making arrangements as often and will tend to move on unless you provide him with that info that you have other responsibilities and need to tend to that first. Don't worry about it either because a real SD will comply with that and like I said, YOU are in control of this relationship.
3. Trust...A relationship is made up of this one very word and just like a normal relationship, this applies to an arrangement. Don't act all into it if you're not going to hold up your end of the bargain, SD's will notice if you're just in it to take the money and run...no, that is not how it's done. This is a relationship and in which you basically tend to the SD as well. If you're looking to just score a Louis and some cash to run with, then you might as well just become a Cam Girl because Cam Girl's are soulless in that aspect.

So now that we have the 3 main basic (or what I like to call) "Rules of Disregard" out of the way, what's next?

Ahh, yes...Your Profile and such....

So you have made an account on a site and now you're wondering how to make it all come together; to get those Sugar Daddies running your way to vie for your attention. But now you're at a loss of words and lack of imagination, here's a few things that could help you benefit:

1. Make sure your profile picture is something that shows off your good side; something that maybe you have gained much positive feedback on FB or other social networking sites. Don't be too revealing, but don't look like you just rolled out of bed, snapped a pic, and decided that was good enough. No, make up is your friend and lighting does wonders. If you have a few extra pounds, don't photoshop it; accentuate it. If you have extra pounds, explain it and don't be insecure. You are woman so let the SD world hear you roar (Katy Perry style!).
2. Do not hide any details. If you have goals and dreams then be sure to list it! An SD loves a woman with passion and how else are they going to know to help you if you don't tell them. However, though details are great, don't be too obvious...leave some mystery open for discussion. 
3. If you're looking for an SD right away, then don't wait for one to contact you...initiate the conversation first by sending a message, wink...whatever is available. When you do get to talking, always talk on the site first and then give personal numbers out later. If he's genuine then he will understand.
4. Lastly, when you get to the stage of arrangement status then make it local first...or have him come to you. especially if you're not comfortable with traveling just yet. However, if you are interested in travel first, then be sure to have him request a hotel room for you first so you have a place to go and NEVER bring him there with you just for cautionary purposes. The last thing that is to be mentioned is that a public "date" is sagely important just in the beginning because who knows what his intentions are and that is something you need to guard.

These are all the basics that are necessary to know in order to become a successful Sugar Baby. As you can see, a lot more is entailed than expected. It may seem easy to keep up with, but the lifestyle traps you into it fast to the point where you think you can handle more than you can chew. When I first got into the Lifestyle, I had no idea just how addictive it could become and I later found myself with 3 SDs and a lot of regret. Stick to a slow pace and just go ahead and proceed with caution.

If you think this is all fairytale without the horror, you are dead wrong. I have encountered times when I could have gotten myself in some serious harm and back then I wish I had someone to guide with with the knowledge that I have pertained nowadays. I started out the worst way possible and that was getting into the relationship without setting limits until it was almost too late. With that being said:

You do not have to have sex with your Sugar Daddy. It may come as a surprise to some of you, but a lot of SDs aren't just looking for a fine piece of ass, they look for companionship as well which is also rather hard to come across. If you feel you aren't ready to engage in such things, you make sure that is known and any respectful person will comply with that, especially your SD (or genuine SD).

I have gained numerous responses retorting that what I have done and what many other women do is basically prostitution- Wrong! A prostitute and a SB may seem very similar (and which they are in the business aspect) there are many things that set apart an SB from a prostitute.

A prostitute is basically all business without the companionship. They gather clients and get paid for sex and sex only. Prostitutes basically have no further connection with these people and never go outside of their business to interact with their customers otherwise. With an SB, you make connections with these men you intend to pursue and you go out on dates and create other activities that you both enjoy together; it's an ongoing arrangement and just like every other normal relationship, you make a choice to engage in sexual activity with your SD based on your limits, but you aren't bound to it just for money like a prostitute would. I like to consider an SD/SB relationship like any other relationship out there...think of it as having a very wealthy and much older boyfriend.

So you see? There is a difference after all and if you so desire and get to that point in time, you could potentially end up marrying your SD if you choose to do so...that is all up to you. You keep it as you'd like and it is to be complied. Sex is just something us humans do as a part of nature, but if it is morally wrong for you to do so, then you don't have to. Believe it or not, not all SDs are in it for sex...many of them are just lonely and need someone to hang out with or talk to so as a token of their appreciation, they spoil you. It works out on so many levels, but you need to understand that a certain gain of trust is what makes it happen.

You can definitely benefit from this lifestyle and I have seen many success in it. I have been asked if it's possible to quit a dead end job that you're already committed to and just be a full-time SD? Absolutely! If you feel your arrangements are working very well, then go for it, but I personally like a fall back in case things don't go the way as intended. I actually encourage many young SBs to continue working while doing the SD/SB relationship. This also applies to you Co-Ed women. That is very self-explained as well.

I obviously wouldn't have came on here to talk about this subject if I had no knowledge whatsoever and in fact because of my success with my YT vids and awesome feedback, I have been offered appearances on various talk shows to explain my experience as well as advice to aspiring SBs out there. To be fair, I have respectfully declined to do so though I had many interest, but maybe one day I will share my experience with the world on a live broadcast...right now, it's just not suit.

There is more to life than being a Sugar Baby. I love how normal everything is in my life without the luxury...which was nice and I was very fortunate to get, but finding your own independence is so much more rewarding and safer I must add. Without the pressure of keeping a relationship I wasn't happy with, I have found myself so much happier to connect with someone out in the real world that cares for me more than just arm candy and for me I get to care for someone and benefit from that on the basis of love. That to me is so much more luxurious. In the words of Lorde: "Well never be Royals, it doesn't run in our blood, that kind of luxe just aint for us, we crave a different kind of buzz". That to me speaks volumes because sometimes stepping outside of where you come from can help you value what you had in the beginning.

Now the last thing I will add is that if you have to hide your relationships/arrangements from family and friends out of shame, then maybe it's a good idea for you to gain perspective on the subject first before pursuing it. I know many joke about the matter, but if you respect the feelings of those that you truly admire, it will help you gain a better sense of what you should really be doing. It's rather complicated to begin with, but it's really your decision and if that's the case, go for it, but keep it on the DL until it is safe to openly admit it.

That is all I have for you and in the meantime ask yourself if this is right for you. Can you handle this responsibility and are you secure enough with yourself to really pull through it? Any other questions that I may have not covered enough for you, send it my way and I will do my best to respond.

As always, I only have the greatest intentions to provide you with only the best I can possibly manage.

Sincerely,

Josie

Just a thought.

Before I lay my head down to sleep, I want to express how truly thankful and grateful I am for everything I have in my life.

Many people take for granted all of life's little things that it has to offer as if it's nothing. Not I. I truly appreciate everything.

I am grateful for the help I have sought out as well as the amazing love and support my boyfriend, family, and best friend have given me. I am truly forever thankful as well.

Many people might question my sincerity pertaining to certain things, but I am always sincere when it comes to things I am thankful of as well as everything else that comes along with it. Life is meant for appreciating the little things rather than the big materialistic ones. As nice as those things are, they're rather unnecessary. Fuck it.

Now I am going to rest my head and wake up to another day full of joy and wonder. Every day is brand new. You are the hero in your own fairytale.

Sincerely,

Josie

Missing my other half.

Usually I refrain from being too mushy, but right now I am really missing my cuddling partner, my love; boyfriend. 

Being away from him is hard and we see each other every other week, which is great and I love that we have days together. I just don't like the days as much when we are apart...

When you're in a relationship, it's important to have distance. Too much interaction physically can become straining and I know this first hand from previous relationships. I have to say though, this is the best relationship I've had ever and I love how sweet everything is and how much fun we have together. For now I just focus on the things I love about him and the things we do together to keep me through the week until we can see each other. 

It's important to remember to focus on the happiest moments in a relationship, especially with long distance ones. If you keep thinking about the sad parts like when you say goodbye at the end of a phone call or when you leave until the next time you see them, it will only make things harder. Think happy.

When you're in love, it should always be happy and beautiful. Hopefully this inspires you to think a little differently when you're apart from your loved one.

Sincerely,

Josie

Geekin' out.

This is the start to my week. I am with my boyfriend and we are playing "Relic" for the first time together since he bought the game. I kinda kick ass at this game right now, but only because I have a pretty badass character. Will I defeat my boyfriend and our 2 other friends at this game?

To be continued...

Sincerely,

Josie

A fresh start...

Well, I really don't know what to say that could already be said by the title. This is a fresh start. I thank many of you (or few) that have followed me or perhaps patiently waited for me to post. My apologies that it took so long. Let me explain...

I've realized that much like every person out there, I have a very ADD mind and with that, I like to switch things up every now and then. We are human and it happens. Things change in life and every now and again we like to transform, reinvent ourselves if you will. This would be my case in point.
When I started this blog, I was thoroughly convinced that I wanted to talk about fashion and how to save money and how to do this and how to do that...you get my point. However, I am not very passionate about just one particular thing. I like to talk about multiple things and I want you to see through that. From now on, it's going to be different.

Here's the thing...I don't want to be like every other blog out there. I don't want to show pictures of my kids (not that I have any) and I don't want to give you the ole ho hum about this awesome fashion craze out there. That's not me and I want you to come to this page and feel that. I want this to be a place where I can express whatever I come across...things that inspire me and hopefully inspire you one day. I want to talk about my friends and I want to talk about horror movies (as it is my favorite genre ever). I may bitch and I may moan and yes, I swear...but I am human and I will have that translate.

Let this be a place where we all can participate and become one. This is not just about me...this is about us.

Lets make this happen and lets make it legendary.

I look forward to seeing where this goes and this time I promise to stick around.

Sincerely, Josie.