Progress.

I had every intention of coming on here today and sharing a DIY that I've been planning all week and then I realized something else...I have been stuck in my own world on all these positive things I've been encountering and it's been making me super happy so I decided to put it off for another day.

Consider this as a positive negative...lol.

Anyway, as you all have been following, I've been yearning for a way to make my life better and mostly in an emotional sense. I've dealt with anxiety so long that I've been so unraveled. It's hard getting yourself out of a hole that is essentially becoming a grave.

Today, I've made some positive changes starting with the way I look at things and it feel so wonderful! Normally I get anxious in public places, no matter te circumstance. I instantly become shaky and then I mentally put myself down. Today as I was browsing through a store, I began to think about things differently. I focused on the things I was after and how happy of an impact it's going to make later on. I looked at a shirt and complimented myself for the first in a long time. I was genuinely happy! I wasn't shaking out of nervousness and I talked backed to myself civilly. This was the most life changing experience to date and began to see how easy it will be to continue.

Another progress I've been making is my credit card debt that I've been struggling with for a while. I don't openly speak about this because really, who would? No one should be proud of their debt...at least not until you get out of it. I never thought about how hard it would be to get out of credit card debt until I got myself into it and now little by little, I'm starting to get out. It's a liberating feeling amongst many.

So you see, I have legit reasons why I put off something I said I would do and I hope it doesn't sound like another excuse, but truly, this is why I spaced out on it. I am naturally a space cadet either way, but today was something really positive that deserved to take the spotlight.

What is something positive that you encountered lately?

Sincerely, 

Josie 

Families and Finances...

This week I am excited for numerous amount of things...and I will get to that in a moment once I open this discussion with something else on my mind..

First: I had this deep inner realization that being responsible with money (financially independent if you will) IS SUPER HARD! I realize that I am an idiot with the way I handle money and the more I save though I want to compulsively shop my ass off, I find myself acting like a crack head going through withdrawal every time I browse a website. I am in a debtors Anonymous group though I really don't have any debt. I pay my bills on time every month and mostly before it's even due. You would think that for someone who is responsible with paying bills would be super smart about saving money, right? Yeah...no..
I had to use my bank's "Checking Advance", which is basically like a loan except it comes right out of your checking when you get money deposited...or ya know, if you decide to pay it back before its due date some other way...yeah, I am terrible at explaining things....

Well in conclusion, I am so bad with money that I had to get one of those and now my check on payday will be smaller because dumbass me had to spend money and use a Checking advance to have money so I can survive. I wish I had more money....but I guess that's why we work. However, this puts everything behind because I want to move out in the fall (Oct-Nov-ish), but I don't see that working out with the way my money management is. I want to save at least 3 grand before I venture. Can I do it? I don't know, but I certainly hope.

NOW....onto things I am excited for:

• I get to see the love of my life Monday and I could not be any more excited.
• I am going to see Marilyn Manson on tuesday
• A good friend of mine is coming up and I cannot wait to catch up and reminisce about the good ole days.

And now something I am not excited for:

• My five year class reunion. 

Why the hell do I want to see people that never gave a shit about me back then? It's not like I have to justify how I am doing in life. Sure, I live with my mom...maybe not the most glamorous thing in  life, but times are tough and I am in no position to argue a free stay. Besides, I don't completely freeload my mother; I pay my own way plus some of her bills. I am functional.

I want to let everyone know that living with your mom in your twenties is nothing to be ashamed of. Like I stated; times are tough. Money is really tight on my end and maybe it's the same for you as well, but don't consider living with parental units a shameful thing...consider them a roommate if it helps. Now, living with parents in your 30's-40's (unless you're like one of those foreign families that all live together) then that's a different story and then I feel personally that you should start thinking about your life a little more. This does not count for those foreign families and/or if you live to take care of your parents because of financial/medical reasons.

Anyway....I am planning a move...I need to save more money...would like to make more money....yeah there's nothing else I can say...
if y'all have any awesome tips to boost my financial situation, please send 'em my way!

 Even though I'm broke, my spirits are not.

Sincerely,
Josie

A fresh start...

Well, I really don't know what to say that could already be said by the title. This is a fresh start. I thank many of you (or few) that have followed me or perhaps patiently waited for me to post. My apologies that it took so long. Let me explain...

I've realized that much like every person out there, I have a very ADD mind and with that, I like to switch things up every now and then. We are human and it happens. Things change in life and every now and again we like to transform, reinvent ourselves if you will. This would be my case in point.
When I started this blog, I was thoroughly convinced that I wanted to talk about fashion and how to save money and how to do this and how to do that...you get my point. However, I am not very passionate about just one particular thing. I like to talk about multiple things and I want you to see through that. From now on, it's going to be different.

Here's the thing...I don't want to be like every other blog out there. I don't want to show pictures of my kids (not that I have any) and I don't want to give you the ole ho hum about this awesome fashion craze out there. That's not me and I want you to come to this page and feel that. I want this to be a place where I can express whatever I come across...things that inspire me and hopefully inspire you one day. I want to talk about my friends and I want to talk about horror movies (as it is my favorite genre ever). I may bitch and I may moan and yes, I swear...but I am human and I will have that translate.

Let this be a place where we all can participate and become one. This is not just about me...this is about us.

Lets make this happen and lets make it legendary.

I look forward to seeing where this goes and this time I promise to stick around.

Sincerely, Josie.